The More I Control Things, The More I Lose Control!

       Physical, intellectual, emotional and spiritual body, these are the four aspects of a man. I’m okay with my physical aspect, but getting worse of it because I was lacking of sleep and I’m restless. I’m also fine with my intellectual aspect but then I’m also getting worse of it because of restlessness. In my emotional aspect and spiritual aspects, I was said to be fading. My spiritual is not enough and my emotional is dying.

       Why? Why these two aspects are directly proportional to each other? The answer simply goes like this, physical is for the body, intellectual is for the mind, emotional is for the heart and for the mind, and spiritual goes with the heart, the mind, the body, the soul.

      If you’re lacking with your spiritual aspect you’re maybe weak in physical and intellectual aspects but too weak with your emotional aspect and it’s simply because they both have the heart.  The heart gives life to a man and the heart allows you to control your body and to control your mind but never to control your soul because the soul must be the one to control your heart. I believe that a good soul results to a good heart!

      As of now, I can say that I’m lacking with my spiritual aspect that’s why I’m losing my emotional and slowly losing my physical and intellectual aspects. I’m a chess player and the game of chess needs these four aspects of a man, it needs spiritual in order accept everything on the game and to have satisfaction to whatever the result of the game may be. It needs physical aspect to be comfortable while playing the game. It needs the intellectual aspect so much because thinking of the best moves is the main focus of the game. Hence, it needs emotional but in a positive way, what I mean is the game of chess needs a positive emotion because sometimes a negative emotion tends to destroy our thinking and definitely results to lose a single game. Nowadays, when I play chess it took hard for me to think of the right moves because I’m getting weak with these four aspects of a man. Chess is like life, so If I’m getting worse with it, I probably getting worse with my life too. Hehehe. Sounds so amusing right? But it’s oh so true.

       I’m too weak now with my emotional aspect for some very private reasons and as I said before I’m slowly getting weaker with physical and intellectual aspects. Maybe I have to work more for my spiritual aspect to save these three aspects because as I can see “the more I control things, the more I lose control.” All i need is “the peace of mind“.

       I would like to thank my dad. We talked this early 6 o’clock in the morning. I woke up early because I can sleep no more, and then when he woke up we started to talk about these things. I’m glad because he understands me. Thanks dad! You’re the best!

       I hope that sooner or later, I’ll be okay and be just fine. There’s only one thing on my mind now and it goes this way, “I know that God will help me through all of these things.” God bless! :)